Star-Filled Sky

This is a song that I wrote in my 20s, when my first girlfriend got married.  It is a song of sisterhood, protectiveness, and coming to terms with being a woman.

Being single this summer for the first time since I was 15 years old:  it’s been very eye-opening.  It is not the same to walk in the world as a woman solo as it is to walk under the shelter of a marriage.  I am learning to accept how I am perceived, what is safe, how I feel interacting with others.  Ultimately, it is opening my heart and bringing me into a new sense of playfulness as I venture through layers of grief and disorientation. 

Please see, below, a video I made last week with updates on my healing process.  I appreciate you following my journey.

Star-Filled Sky was co-lyriced by my dear friend and amazing songstress, Nancy Newman from Vancouver, BC.  We had a lot of fun refining my original lyrics

Enjoy the song!  Here is the link to listen.

Star-Filled Sky

I heard you were having a child
I drove right through the night
Not so long ago
We stared at stars, our hopes aglow

Now I’m knocking at your heart
Trying to find the key
But the walls are closing in 
There’s no room to breathe

Sister there’s a hurtin’ eyes
Sister with a baby that’s cryin
Sister will you travel on in time
To a star filled sky

You walk the city streets
I shuffle pavement at your side
While a ship floats aimlessly out in the deep
So distant is the myth of pride

Sister…

Maybe someday we will wake up and see
The visions we dreamed of, the stars we believed
Let the rain, clear the pain, with its tears on your cheek

Sister


Much Love and another song soon,
Zoey

* watch the video below for my healing journey update

Beautiful People!! Here I am in my 11th home since June 1st. It’s been an unbelievable journey.

After losing everything, my business, my home and my husband, I continue to recover my brain health and to receive so much love and support! What a lesson in letting go.

I have been travelling around with a full box of supplements, dry foods, fridge foods in a cooler, and other health needs, my clothes, office box, camping gear, and toolkit. Every home I have stayed in has been massive unloading and reloading, packing and cleaning, learning everyone’s home and garden and pet care systems. I definitely feel like a confident traveler now, like I can go anywhere and even sleep anywhere – hooray!! I dearly look forward to traveling without all the health paraphernalia, etc. in the future. Dreams of traveling light… 

And dreams of being settled in and hunkered down to spend the winter writing a book, working on original songs.

I’ve got a lot of healing to do to process what has happened to me these last two years. The illness was impossibly tough on my marriage, eventually breaking it apart. This is a lot to come to terms with. What I have lost, what I have gained, what it all means, why it all happened; I need to be with all of it.

Daily, I still have DNRS brain retraining. If I don’t do it for 4-5 days, I begin to have limbic brain symptoms that can interfere with sleep and begin to bring on panic again. I’m not recovered enough yet to simply stop practicing. Still enforcing new neural pathways. But I do have more flex with it before I am in trouble.

Cranial nerve therapy-wise, I feel behind and stalled. We have been trying to get my nasal reflex to happen since last December and I haven’t made any progress. My tongue is still traumatized, meaning it is “too scared” to get out of the way and lift up in the back to allow me to breathe better overall. Both Lois Laynee and my myofunctional dentist are working on this.

Dentistry is going well. There is a lot more room and symmetry and health now on the roof of my mouth. We are adding in some more aggressive appliances next month to get all the way to our goal – which is a successful tongue tie surgery.

Life-wise, I have been managing an incredible amount of stress without having a solid home base, constantly moving around, and grieving a 28 year marriage. Reuben has had a very different separation experience. So I have been on my own and cut off from him, which is very sad.

Some amazing, beautiful new blossoms in my life:

I shared the MDH Breathing Coordination with a group of 6 singers over the summer. We met once a week and practiced and sang together. It was a real anchor for me and affirmed my love of leading women’s song circle (and my new love of this vocal technique).

Also – a very experienced editor has read the whole manuscript to a book I wrote several years ago. She is totally on board to help me bring this book to published! Yes, I will be publishing my first book!

Please watch this video because your support is so important to me. I want you to see and feel it as I speak from my heart.

Until the next update,
Zoey

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